Monday, December 7, 2009

Pics I couldn't post in the previous post.

The over-race outfit outfit:


The powder plushie in all its preciousness:

Funny bumper sticker.

Race Expo Balloon fail:



The fountains at the Sacramento convention center look like rejects from the set of LOST:




Creepy, right?

CAM @ CIM

The following is a recap of our trip to Sacramento for the California International Marathon (CIM). It's mostly race recap, but since it's technically a trip we took, it goes here. Warning: it's very long. And no photos in this post (blogger is problematic right now). Anyway: have at it!

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I worried.

I worried if I would slip in the tub. I worried, on long runs, if I would pull a muscle. And the three or so days before I ran the California International Marathon (CIM), I worried that I wasn’t carbo loading, I was fattening myself up for slaughter.

As runners, we worry. In my case, it goes a bit beyond, into anxiety, a constant internal “what if?” dialogue, an ongoing scenario-setting, putting words in others’ mouths before you hear what they’re actually saying. This sensitivity to my thoughts and intuition of others’ is actually quite useful as a writer. But it’s hard as a runner: You tend to overthink things.

I ran my first marathon in 2005 in San Diego. I went from “I’ll run if you chase me” to a 4:18 marathoner. I ran Portland in 2006, pacing the first half of a marathon and then deciding to run the rest.

I considered CIM in 2007—but a stress fracture that summer precluded training. And in 2008, a mysterious quadriceps problem negged the race.

But this year, it all seemed to come together—although with the accompanying worry and doubt that accompanies any training.

So here’s the recap:

We are in Sacramento by 9:15 a.m. on Saturday. The race is Sunday.

Nick and Megan, friends of Justin’s that he knows through his Volkswagen TDI car club, pick us up. They are awesome. Nice, friendly, down to earth. I feel good about this race, this place. Go to hotel. Check in at hotel. Nick and Megan will pick us up for lunch and drive the course with/for us.

Go to the race Expo. Expo is at the Convention Center which has the creepiest fountains I have ever seen. Will post in next post.
It is the usual running Expo for a mid-size marathon, full of the essentials you need (your race number, your timing chip) as well as random sponsors (olive oil? really?).

Race shirts for the women are nothing short of fug, pale urine in color and a fabric texture that appears to be a blend of first aid gauze and parachute pant. The men’s shirts are royal blue and thicker. I’m told to come back at 5 p.m. and I may be able to exchange the shirt for another.

My race number has a 5 and a 3 in it. This makes me happy. 35 is my lucky number, in any combination.

Run into friends from my running club at the Expo. It is nice to see familiar faces. Then I wander over toward the water bottles to buy an extra and can’t find them again.

There is a balloon display. Except that the “A” is deflated, so: “GOODY BGS.” This makes us laugh. Another good sign.

Go back to room. Realize I need to do an easy, loosen-up run of about two miles. Change, go downstairs, ask at the front desk where I can go. The hotel is across the street from Capitol Park, which is about a mile if you run all the way around it, they say.

It is cold at first, and I have forgotten my gloves. I do two laps of the park. The sun is out, and the park is very green and manicured prettily with lots of zigzagging paths and crisply white buildings, and I spot a bride and groom getting wedding photos taken, also crisp and white against the green, and I’m running with a big smile on my face because I am here! I am here! and barring anything catastrophic, I am going to do this race tomorrow, and goddamn it if I’m just not the happiest runner in this city right now at this very moment.

Then I return to the hotel room and shower, effectively frizzing up my hair for the whole weekend.

Nick and Megan come by the hotel about 12:30. They are nice enough to chauffeur us around the whole damn weekend, really going above and beyond in the realm of coolness. Part of this chauffeuring involves driving the CIM course, which starts in Folsom and ends up in Sacramento.

We take the highway to drive to Folsom. The course does not go on the highway, but driving from downtown Sacramento to Folsom makes you realize that 26.2 miles is indeed “Fa, a long long way to go….”

But first: Lunch. Fats: Asian food in Folsom, where we (okay me) gorge on rice and veggies and shrimp salad rolls and more rice again. I drink pitchers of water. I should be hooked up to a tap.

The course does indeed roll. Gentle, fat rollers, undulating like ribbons. As we drive, we comment on what it would be like to have a house with lots of land, we comment on a painted Victorian farmhouse in Folsom, and then commented on the scenery toward Fair Oaks and Citrus Heights, where chickens strut across the sidewalks, past a nursery that Nick and Megan call “the snooty nursery,” to Sacramento.

Just when you forget that there are hills, we drive over a series of more lifts and falls.

We get back to downtown in time to hurry into the expo for me to check to see if I can exchange my shirt for another. The only men’s shirts they have that aren’t the size of a dress on me are short sleeve. I’ll take it.

Time for more food. Nick and Megan are, I think, a little bit fascinated by how much I eat—and that I need to eat so early. We go to a teriyaki place and I order some veggie rolls and salad and miso and eat it like I am training for sumo.

Back to the hotel about 7, in bed by about 8:30-9, up at 2:30, 3, and 4:01, panicking because the wake up call didn’t come and gee, it’s amazing that I woke myself up in time, because like, omigod, can you imagine if I came all the way here and woke up at like 7:15?

The wake up call comes at 4:02.

Justin’s alarm on his phone goes off at 4:15.

The poor guy. I owe him at least a few days of no snide comments, eh?

Morning preparations for a race are different in a hotel. I have my bread, my clothes laid out, I’ve brought a green tea bag from home, the water in the coffeemaker is very hot. Make many trips to the bathroom. Many. Quick shower, to warm up.

Clothes.

Let’s take a step back.

Knowing it was going to be 30 degrees at the start, and that there would be some standing around at the start involved, I ventured to my local Goodwill to buy some throwaway clothes the week before the race. (Lots of people do this. The clothes get donated.) But then I liked the thick red hoodie and sweet gray velour pants so much I couldn’t bear to throw them away. Goodwill fail.

I then decided to try the thrift shop near my office two days before we were to leave.

Jackpot.

A ratty, pilled gap pullover from Gap from about 1991. A…well, I’m not sure what this was. It might have been pajamas. It might have been a jogging suit. Really, it looked like something snatched from the set of Mama’s Family. It was blue. 100% polyester. And it was fuzzy and warm and baggy enough so that I could out it on over my race outfit and not have to take my shoes off to take off the pants. As long as no one lit a cigarette next to me, I was golden.
Pics to come in next post. Having a lot of problems posting pics right now.

Justin is awake, by now, having zip-tied my chip onto my shoe. Another of my running superstitions: Someone else has to do it.

Huge line outside of hotel. Buses to the start line (this is a point-to-point course) have just left. We wait for more. I stand behind a group of girls who eye my outfit and then turn around and talk to each other. I see sororities are alive and well in adulthood. Start talking to the guys in back of me, who are much more fun. We are asked to move to the sidewalk by hotel staff. I am then discouraged because that puts me at the back of the queue when I hear my name called by someone at the front of it.

It’s Gary! I met Gary through my friend Julie, and had done a few long runs with him. It was so great to see him, a wonderfully familiar face in the darkness and the cold. (Actually, I wasn’t cold. I was warm as Hades in my getup.) We chat a while in line, waiting for the buses to take us to the start.

The next wave of buses doesn’t show. A group of us decides to walk the block over to the Sheraton, which is the host hotel, where we catch one of the buses. I wonder if they ever showed up at the Hyatt.

Anyway, on the bus. Gary and I chat, he eyes the blue of my outfit and the plushness of the fabric and says I look like I should be wearing a stuffed animal face at an amusement park. It’s even funnier because he’s saying all this in a northern England accent.

The buses are heated very heavily. The heat and the rock of the bus smoothing over early morning highway and the washed purple sky all seem to lull many folks (including me) to sleepiness. We settle into comfortable silence. I am so warm that I actually put my hand to the window to feel the coolness. I need to stay awake, alert.

The bus seems to take ages. It’s like we’re going to Foreverville.

When we pull up to the start, it reminds me of a scene from the X-Files—if there was a port-o-potty episode: Dark sky, floodlights. And hundreds upon hundreds of port-o-potties. As someone who was in a port-o-potty (how many times can I type port-o-potty in one paragraph?) at the start gun of her first ever half-marathon (Brooklyn half, winter 2005), it’s something I appreciate. Gary and I wander down to the bus where people are tossing their bags of sweats to pick up after the race. I don’t bother with that – I’ve got everything I need on me. Gary and I bid farewell and get into our respective pace areas.

The sky is lightening. It’s a lovely-looking morning. Clear. Mountains in the distance. We’re not running over them and I am glad for that. The sky: Sunrises are underrated. Sunsets get all the credit.

6:50 and the race starts at 7. Time to shed my adorable outfit. Sigh. But the show must go on. I remove the pants, take all my Gu Chomps packets out of the pullover’s pocket. I have pre-opened them halfway, because, based on previous runs in the cold, I will likely not have the ability to open the packets while running. Not because I can’t walk and chew gum at the same time—I can totally do that—but because I have Reynaud’s syndrome, where my hands turn colors and in the cold, they essentially turn into bricks and I can’t move them individually.

Raceready shorts are the best. I highly recommend them. Pockets are good when you are a person who needs to eat a lot. As I am disrobing, a guy next to me named Rafael offers me some Icy Hot, and a washcloth to wipe my fingers on after using it. This is the equivalent of someone presenting a finger bowl to you at a shmancy dinner party. Although I have coated parts of my legs that are likely to ache in tiger balm (which Justin oh-so-lovingly calls “stink rub”), I take him up on his offer. Rafael and I wish each other good luck and carry on.

My race strategy is kind of cribbed from Better Off Dead: “Go that way. Really fast. If something gets in your way, turn.”

Racing a marathon was something I was going to attempt this year. Here I was. About to do that. Or at least PR*

(*PR = personal record. It has almost as many uses and conjugations as the F-word. Used as a noun “I got a PR.” And a verb “I PR’d.” How many more uses can you find?)

Here was my strategy, though. Start slow. Be conservative. Run a good and smart race and see what you end up with for time. Be mentally present.

In May, I ran the Eugene half marathon. I PR’d (see?) by 3+ minutes and I did it by starting slowly and being focused throughout. I wouldn’t let myself stop or think bad thoughts about how I was doing. I wanted to run happy. And I did. My last 2 miles were my fastest and I passed people at the end like there was free couture at the finish.

So I found the 4 hour pacer. I figured that would keep me honest.

We’re in line. I have my Garmin turned on, my ipod poised on pause.

People are tossing last-minute items of clothing. I toss my top layer and it ends up on the curb. Some shorter runners aren’t so lucky; they are the unwitting receivers of airborne apparel. Go long! Someone shouts. Everyone laughs. No one is angry. We are here, lined up, widely spaced, even, no elbows, no jostling, ready to begin.

My vision sharpens from the tears I blink back. Tears? What are you doing here? What is this…salty discharge? A small giggle pops out. I am here, I am present, I am about to run a race. I am so happy and honored and humbled to be standing where I am. It’s pride. I stand straighter.

We’re off.

Well, not quite.

It’s about 3 minutes to the start line. We just kind of stand there, bob from side to side, in anticipation. Someone in the crowd jokes that this is a great pace.

We cross the start line. There’s that delightful Santa wonderland sound of thousands of timing chips a’ beeping.

Our first mile is 9:40. This is going to be kind of a problem, but it’s so congested, and I have faith in the pacer.

Second mile, 9:14.

I am starting to get a little concerned, but at the same time, I have faith in the pacer. I focus on staying slow, slow, slow at the start, pacing, up the hill even effort, and down, gently. I talk briefly to a woman from Eugene who is trying to break 4:00. I tell her I intend to stay with the 4:00 group until about mile 16 and then see what happens. “Me too!” she enthuses. Yay. I have a buddy. We keep checking back behind us to see where the 4:00 pacer is, as if we are on a class field trip and she is the teacher.

The next two miles the pacer decided to speed up and get us back on track. 8:40s.

I’d lost my new friend by this point. I don’t remember if I passed her or if she stayed in front of me. I think it was the former. I hope she did okay. She was nice.

This is where I sidebar:

I’ve paced a grand total of twice, and each time, it was for half of a full marathon. I don’t do this for a living. CIM was my third marathon. I don’t do ultras and I certainly didn’t do an Ironman the week before like our pacer had. She could kick my ass eight ways from Sunday, no doubt whatsoever.

But, really? Do you want to try to get on pace by doing 2 miles that are ~30 seconds faster than pace just to get back on pace that quickly that early in the race? Don’t you want to gradually drop it down? I know I always tried to do that. You go too fast, you lose folks.

But maybe I don’t know what I’m talking about, and maybe those miles that she sped up were the good miles to speed up on.

But I wouldn’t have done it like that.

Also another thing. When Team Red Lizard gave out pace bands for the Portland Marathon, mile splits were adjusted for the terrain. An uphill mile will have a slower time than a flat mile, but with the downhills, it all works out. I was shocked to find out the pace temporary tattoos they gave out were even splits. Isn’t that kind of silly? Especially with all those hills? What’s up with that? That seemed like kind of a fail to me.

I stayed with her, and always stayed in front, but while they eventually faded back to 9:08 pace, I kept on ahead.

First relay point, mile 6. This marathon also has a relay along with it. It’s usually not bothersome.

The wind comes out to play. Uphill we go, while the wind goes sideways. I’m at a spot where I can hear the 4:00 pacer, but she fades a little, but I want to go conservative on this area. I’d driven this course, read the recaps of these miles on the Sacramento Bee’s blog, knew they were some of the slowest miles, I wasn’t that worried.

Clicking off the miles. 9:05, 9:06, 9:02 – miles 7, 8, 9. Windy.

The music gods were with me that day. To a point where it was almost supernatural. Cross the 8-mile marker and Eminem’s “Lose Yourself” comes on. Stuff like that. Morrissey “You’re going to need someone on your side” at mile 9.

People on your side.

I know some people who write the names of 26 people on their arm, one for each mile. Or they keep the names in their heads. I don’t do anything specific like that. I would say my thoughts when I run long and alone are like someone really impatient switching the remote. Static, ADD, unsettled kind of things, some flashes of good stuff, but mainly background noise.

The first marathon I ran, I spent a lot of time thinking of a childhood friend, someone I’d known since early single digit ages. She was a good friend, then she wasn’t, then she was, and then she wasn’t, and she died early before we could become friends again. I thought about her this time, too.

People on your side. They may be people who aren’t around anymore. They sometimes show you they’re there, in fact, on your side. I ran behind a guy with a URL on his bright orange singlet for a few miles. I got up to him and asked him the significance. A young girl, brain cancer, friend of the family, who survived. He was running for her.

My uncle died in late 2006 of lung and brain cancer. I thought about my Olympic-caliber swimmer grandma, who died in 2008 well into her late 90s.

They were there. Pushing me along.

And I thought about all the support I had from living people, friends back in Portland and across the country. They were sending me good energy, I felt it, I knew it, I embraced and held it. It surrounded me.

Mile 10, happy people at Fair Oaks, passing them and then heading up an uphill at mile 11. Wind back again, I’m zoning, by now there’s one of those long and undulating technoish songs on my ipod, which I’m fine with. I’m not in the mood to think about words, I just want a beat.

Pushing through to 13, where I was supposed to see Justin, Nick, and Megan for the first time. Justin had a full water bottle, and I was low on mine.

We hit the 13 marker. Where are they? Where are they? Shit shit shit. Keep going, keep going, they said they’ll be here, they’ll be here. I’m looking for Justin’s Carhartt jacket and crap did they say they’d be on the right or left side? I don’t know, shit, I need a boost, where are they, where are they?

And then they were there, not far from mile 14, I raise my hand, he sees me, I drop a water bottle at his feet yell “thanksIloveyou!” and grab the one he’s holding I see the signs they’ve made, big cardboard, my name, spray paint, but it doesn’t register, water, water, get the bottle wrapped around my hand, but my hands are so cold that my fingers won’t move enough to shove them in, it’s like working with one solid frozen mass.

I then drop the water bottle, run back a few paces to pick it up, slam it onto my hand. “Nice save,” says one of my fellow runners.

“Thanks,” I reply. “I try.”

Really nice runners in this race. My hands were so frozen I couldn’t get my Gu packets out of my pockets. I had to ask other runners to get them for me.

I wondered if this is what Bob Barker felt like when someone in Contestant Row guessed the exact amount and reached into his pocket for $100.

I ate a couple of Gu chomps about every 3-4 miles or so. I found that worked the best for me, rather than to eat, wait 6-8 miles, and then eat again. It kept me consistent. Once I had the packets out of my pockets, I would hold one in my left hand and the water bottle in the other. I think I ate about 8 servings worth of Gu in this race. That’s a lot of caffeine. Because I normally drink decaf.

Miles 14, 15, 16. Good music, flat terrain, ugly old strip malls. Peel off the miles, keep going and going…

“Don’t call it a comeback! I’ve been here for years!” sings my ipod.

I’m running alone this whole time. I amuse myself by trying to find people to draft behind. I don’t have much luck. Running back and forth trying to do this is probably why my Garmin says I ran an extra .10 of a mile for this race.

I just kind of tuck my head down and run. I spend a lot of this stretch trying to keep my hat on my head. It keeps working itself up over my ears and I yank it down. This is not a good look. I fear the race photos.

I’d thought the later miles would suck more, but it was about 15-17 that I was kind of blah, this is middle child territory, there’s a reason no one pays attention. Last big hill about 16. Even effort up, race the downhills, I tell myself. Fly down, perpendicular to the ground.

I imagine I have a cape.

I spot Justin, Nick and Megan around mile 17, which is right by Nick and Megan’s house. Justin has used his special telepathy skills to intuit that I would have loved him to refill that water bottle. He presents it like a prizefighting trophy. I am in love all over again. “Ohmigodthankssomuchloveyoubyeeeeee!”

I tell myself that 16-17 or so is where I’m going to test things. I want to tell myself “open it up, push it,” but I’ve got 10 miles to go.

But I like this distance. I like a nice 15k race.

So let’s play, I tell myself.

I had my Garmin set to record each split. The only data I had on it was pace per mile, heart rate, and time elapsed per mile. I didn’t know my overall pace. They had people at each mile marker shouting them, but that was if you’d started right at gun time, so it was basically meaningless for me, at least in the early miles.

Each mile was its own, each mile like a short story in a book of short stories. Read one, turn the page, onto the next one, don’t look back.

I once read a piece of writing advice by Stephen King. It was about short stories vs. a novel. He called a short story “a kiss in the dark.” A short story left things up to you, the reader, to interpret.

I thought about that as I clicked through the miles, ratcheting.

An 8:50 mile? That was easy. But still many miles to go. So, let’s see if I can take it to an 8:48. Hey, look, I did that for 2 more miles. How about an 8:47? Sure, but keep some in check for that J street bridge hill.

I imagined it like the Broadway Bridge in the Portland marathon. Not a big hill but after 24 miles it’s lethal.

I took my last Gu at about mile 20.5 in anticipation. It was the Espresso Love gu, with 2x the caffeine. Bring it home, babe!

Oh! That was the bridge? That was easy peasy! Awesome! Must have been the Gu?

I run across the bridge. The sun peeks out behind the clouds and darts back in again. The water is still. There are ducks. I hear birds, even though my ipod. The clouds are beautiful, smeared striations.

I’m running faster miles in mile 22 in a marathon than I ever thumped through for 10 seconds on a treadmill only a few years ago.

I have a grin like it’s every birthday all rolled into one.

My vision sharpens again, each droplet on the water seems to sparkle and call to me. I think my eyes hurt from smiling so widely.

This feeling. It is joy.

Down over the bridge and over to mile 22, 23. The streets are numbered in the 50s and I have to get down to 7th. Okay, I tell myself. It’s like running from Tabor to the waterfront. I can do this, I have done it. Often.

The joy wears off in its own way. I am blazing by folks. They are walking. I haven’t walked one step in this race, save to pick up one dropped water bottle and one Gu. 8:37 for mile 23. Mile 23! One of my fastest miles. I am going, going, gone.

And then: Mile 24. I’m bored. The course is flat. I’m now bored with flat. I want the ribboney roads back, I’m still ready.

At this point I wish I’d had a friend with me; I’ve had such great company on all my training runs. I knew I’d have to run my own race, and I was okay with that, but by then I was kind of bored with it.

No one is even having conversations I can evesdrop on, because I’m passing just about everyone. I feel almost guilty, except not at all. I’m mainly bored. 8:42, a bit slower, because I’m so bored. At least I’m mainly out of the wind.

For 24 and a bit of 25, I tell myself, “It’s just like a tempo run on Springwater on a Thursday morning. You’re kind of tired, you have to go to work after this, you’re running a little late, and OMSI is close, so don’t stop, soon you’ll be at the Millwork place and then round the corner past the boats and the ballet place to OMSI and then under the Hawthorne bridge and you can get in your car and go home and get ready and start your day. It’s just a tempo run, flat, doable.”

Mile 25. 8:38. Less than a 5k. Hmm, I think, let’s aim for a 5k under 23:00 in 2010?

Mile 26 is here. I tell myself that it’s the last 1600 meters in a track workout.

It certainly felt like it. It was starting to get that Tuesday Night Track Tummy feel. All the Gus I’d eaten were suddenly starting to churn into one mixed nasty fruity espresso soup in my stomach.

Just go go go, Carin! The sooner you finish, the sooner this will be over with and you can get on with your day

I was bored but at the same time heady! I was flying! I just wanted to be done! I wasn’t in pain, it was just a lot of physical blah blah, blah runcakes.

I looked at my Garmin a lot those last 2.2 miles.

I saw a friend from my running club and shouted his name. I think he looked surprised to see me sailing by, happy, yelling his name. That boosted me faster. How you like me now?

Excuse me, excuse me, pardon me, I have what looks like a massive PR to attend to.

Mile 26 marker! .2 miles to go.

It’s just an 800, it’s your last 800 on the track before you get to cool down and then go home and shower and warm up and eat rice and toast in your pj’s. An 800, let’s do it!

7:12 pace but I only know this later because I am so not looking at my watch, I’m looking at all the freaking people I’m passing and the crowds and the hollering and I am so strong!

And I’m into the finishing chute!

...wondering why they have separate ones for men and women, is this like old school schooling or something?

The announcer says something about 5 minutes until breaking the 4 hour marker and I’m thinking “That is gun time, dude! Get a grip!" I smashed the 4:00 mark, yo, ain’t no thang!” and whirl through the finishing chute and “beeeeeeeeeeep!” goes my chip, heralding my arrival! And I am done, done, done! and a smile like it’s going to freeze on me if someone thumps my back and I just might do it to myself because I feel so unbelievably high…even though I have no idea what my time is.

I figured it was about 3:52ish.

(Later I checked the site and learned I did a 3:53. First half in 2:01. Second half in 1:52.)

Justin spots me in the crowd. I lean on him, happy and spent and babbling crazy talk like I always do when I have a fantastic run. I am beyond high. They ask me what do I want? Do I want water? My sweats? I tell them I just want to get out of the crowd. I could care less about the post-race food, the milling, the freebies. Gross.

We walk to the hotel. Nick and Megan go to buy me my preferred post-marathon food of Doritos and a regular coke (so nice of them), and they fill buckets with ice and hang out in the room while Justin closes the bathroom door, leaving them in the room and us in the bathroom, and runs me an ice bath.

We chat about the race, about what I’ve recapped above.

As I immerse, good lord, it’s cold. I tell myself, out loud, that “I am on a beach! Somewhere warm!” and sip on Coke and he feeds me Doritos like I’m a baby bird. ““Happy place!” I yell.

What he doesn’t know is that this, right there, is my happy place.

I will be old and feeble someday, with a constant state of feeling like my post-marathon state, and I will always remember sitting there with him, my legs practically cryogenic and us both laughing about something silly that only we find funny and laughing so hard that we’re crying and he knocks some Doritos into the tub.

Oh, man. Writing a long recap seated at a desk is probably not the best thing for marathon recovery. My legs seem to be tightening with each word typed. So I’ll speed up and close.

Rest of day is spent at Nick and Megan’s, eating Chipotle and watching Up and random car things while their dogs and cats snuggle with us. This is the most comfortable couch in the world, and I am happy and spent and my legs feel fantastic. I feel fantastic.

I did what I sent out to do. Who knows. Maybe I could have qualified for Boston this race. Maybe I did run it too conservative. You can argue that since the second half of the race was 9 minutes faster than the first.

But really, what I wanted to do was enjoy myself. Remember why I set out to run marathons. Keying into why this was, still, important to me. Why I get up on Saturdays at 6:30 and drink green tea and eat weird bread all so I can go to the bathroom several times before an 8 a.m. run.

And it was long overdue. I felt like a marathon virgin all over again. And really, it’s the first marathon I’ve raced. And maybe I didn’t even do that. Racing would imply that I gave it my all for every mile, no? I didn’t race against anyone, except a past version of myself. I didn’t race for a specific time. That will likely be an upcoming goal, one that appears not as out of reach as previously thought. And then why not even faster than that? Why limit myself?

Or maybe racing is that control. Maybe that was my challenge. To not go out too fast and cramp up. That I made dropping the pace fun, like a game. That I kept myself going, running, going going gone. There was wind, yes, but was it Tough Conditions? I guess. I didn’t feel that way until someone told me that the race was in Tough Conditions. The marathon is tough conditions, you know?

Monday, August 3, 2009

Day 4: Ashland - Eugene - Portland

The next morning we had a delectable 3-course breakfast at the B&B, and then gathered our things and headed on our way.

First, a stop at the Ashland Farmer's market. Hot hot hot! We stopped at the tent of a guy selling carnivorous, tropical plants. They had one that curled up the moment you touched it. I wanted one. But I thought it might die in the car on the way home. I haven't had good luck with flora lately. I don' t know why.

Hot!
Hot!

Did I mention it was hot?
Hot!
About 11 a.m. it was well into the 90s. (Ha, I almost wrote '90s. It was well into the era of Hammer Pants when we left town...)

We stopped at Paschal Winery in Talent, about 15 minutes out of town. Tasted their wines. Again, some really good stuff. Seems like there are a lot down there. But we just didn't have the time, money, or wherewithall (what is wherewithall, anyway?). I would like to go back to southern Oregon and do an Ashland play/southern Oregon wines long weekend at some point. Anyone game?

Me outside winery:

Next, it was up to Grants Pass, to check out Rogue Creamery and Lillebelle chocolates. Yes, our trips do tend to revolve around food. Deal.


I was kind of disappointed by Rogue. Not their cheeses (oh to have brought any of it home!). But the place itself. I had thought it would be more like a factory, like Tillamook. I also thought there would be more in Grants Pass. Lots of nothingness, again.
Then it was time to hit the road again and stop by the Oregon Vortex.

I've included the link above because I'm too lazy to explain it fully. Basically it's a place in southern Oregon that's built on a hill and so everything looks different in an optical illusion sort of way. And this is supposed to be all Ripley's Believe it Or Not/That's Incredible/X-Files/Woo-Freakin'-Woo.

The whole thing annoyed me. Is there a term for beyond bored? Stupefied? It was about 110 degrees, you're standing in a house that's leaning, feeling claustrophobic, and dude! the reason everything looks different? you're standing on a hill! Can I get our $ back now?
Okay, at least mine?
The guide was a good guy, and used all of us in various demos of how this place doesn't conform to any physical properties (things rolling uphill and such). But you can pretty much tell how much I want to be back in my car's a/c right about after my demo:



Justin, on the other hand, bought a t-shirt.

Back in the car, heading home. Starts to look like the Oregon most know:



No more photos after this one. We stopped in Eugene for dinner at Cafe Yumm (the same one that I ate at before the Eugene half, so it had good energy. I love Cafe Yumm). I took the wheel, and we headed home, got home about 7 p.m. and immediately turned on the a/c...but I think it got cool around 2 a.m.
Am I glad we did the trip? Hell's yes. Did it take time away from home projects and other work to do Yeah, it did. But when else were we gonna go? August is full, September's getting there.
We may travel again sometime in January, if I have anything to say about it.
Maybe next time I'll even take my computer. And can actually devise interesting posts along the way.
This one is showing its age.


Day 3: Ashland

So as a writer (though you probably can't tell from this blog), I should have gotten to Ashland sooner than this. And I also should have seen a play there, which we didn't. (The timing was off, I am regretful but will likely return. So what if it's partly for the wineries? More on that later.)




It was insanely hot.


We were hungry.



It was lunchtime.


We couldn't check into our B&B until 4 p.m., so we had to get some lunch and tool around. We first went to one place, and you know how you're fine, fine, not hungry, okay, but then suddenly and without warning it tips you over into "I'm going to eat my own face?" It doesn't matter that it's kind of not possible. Hunger makes you do desperate, desperate things. That happened in this one place we went into (I can't remember the name, and wouldn't care to share it even if I did remember). We got seated. And 10 minutes went by. 15. No one came by. Place was packed. It was 1:45 by now and I was ready to eat many faces.


You don't want to be with me when I'm like this. The emergency energy bar in the purse was long gone, demolished somewhere around Crane.

We left and went next door, where there was a salad bar! For immediate gratification. I don't think I've ever been so happy to see a salad bar. And it was a good one, too.


Justin is not as well-versed as I am in "how to make a light, cheap salad." Yes, mine was bigger. But his was more expensive. Everyone (but him, I guess) knows that you don't put in the whole hardboiled eggs to salad bar salads! That's like $2 each! Hee hee. This salad is sold by weight, not volume. Just like cereal, my friends.


After the hunger shakes mellowed, we wandered around Lithia Park.


Did I mention it was hot?
I think I am panting like a dog here. It was 104, I think?


We found a shady spot and lay on the grass, looking up, listening to all the hippies (wow, there are so.many.hippies) play guitar, watching leaves fall, maybe getting a contact high. Occasionally I'd snark to Justin "People are at work now."

Realizing we were in a 2-hour parking spot, and not knowing how rigidly they ticket in Ashland during a hot summer Monday, we drove off to check out Weisingers winery. It's real close to downtown Ashland, which was a plus: We didn't want to go far. We just needed to kill some time (die, time, die!) and so off we went.


Which looks like this:








Justin outside tasting room:


The night before, in Lakeview, we had watched an OPB special on honeybees. Normally I get completely freaked out by anything bee, but this was really interesting and gave me a better understanding of the insects that terrify me so. If there are reasons that things happen, then maybe the stay in the scary hotel was designed to make me entirely un-freaked out and vaguely fascinated by what was in this winery:


Men in ugly hats!

Kidding.

Kind of.

That is a hive! Of honeybees! They come in from the outside, through this tube!



The owner was there, giving tastings, and he helped us spot the queen and talked a bunch about bees and colony collapse disorder (what we'd seen the show about--why bees are disappearing--not just dying, but vanishing--and no one knows why).

Despite that--or because of that--their wines were really quite good. And we had a great time talking to the owner; we covered everything from How We Met to Yes, Thank YOu For Agreeing, It's Totally Okay Not To Have Kids If You Don't Want Them.

We bought three bottles.

Now it was finally time to check into our hotel, the Morical House. Liked it a lot. Very comfy, non-foofy. B&Bs scare me, for their foofiness. This was non-foofy. I recommend. We napped for a bit (see a pattern here?) and while Justin continued to nap, I wandered back into the main house to get some tea to wake me up a bit.

Where I ran into...my old roommate--and her boyfriend-- from when I first moved here! I was totally sleepy still and spaced it at first but it was crazy weird! Not only is Portland a small town, but despite the vastness that we'd experienced on this trip, Oregon is a small place.

At least for those who have taste. And Elizabeth has very good taste.

Later that evening, Justin and I went back into town for dinner. We couldn't decide where to go. We had a drink at the bar in the Ashland Spring hotel, and then wandered around and decided to go to...damn, I can't remember the name, but I loved it. Sesame? Sesame's? Something like that. It is new, and Asian-fusioney, and right by Lithia Park. Good food, great portions, and I was freaking starving. Thumbs up.

Got back to the B&B, crashed out and then the next day it was time to make our way northward.

Day 3: Lakeview - Ashland

Here is where I start typing with the map on my lap.
Was more than happy to get out of Lakeview. On we went (I drove for a few hours), taking 140 through the Fremont National Forest, and stopping in Bly to use the bathroom and checking out antique stores...which were also closed.

Probably the most depressing photo I've ever taken:


So lots of driving through the Fremont National Forest. Beautiful, lush, high forest. Smelled more like tinder than rich wetness. Seriously, I now totally get the whole fire danger thing. The air is just high, tight, and tense but airy and clear, just waiting for something to ignite.

I even kept my inflammatory foods, comments, and opinions to myself. I wonder if someone gets fired in the area if the words spontaneously combust. Okay, I'll stop.

Some pics (I think we pulled over to take this one):


This shot epitomizes the drive to Ashland. Very curvy roads. There were few straightaways. If I hadn't been driving, or if anyone but Justin had, I'm pretty sure I would have gotten carsick. Again, something that's only happened to me in the past few years. Oh, hello, aging! Back so soon?


One shot we definitely stopped to take (a lot of the dust had blown off Nellie by this point, but you not only could have written "wash me" on her, you probably could have written the Gettysburg Address on her. Or something.


So I drove for a few hours, and then Justin took over. Probably a good thing, because at one point I was like, wait, we're going to have to descend sometime, right? Ashland isn't as high up as Lakeview, so when is the great descent?
Oh, look. Here! A 7% grade this time. Pish-Posh.


More descent. This is when it started to remind me of the times I've been to the San Francisco area. Golden hills, more seasonally dry, where you know that there's a verdant time of the year. Even though it was just as dry and hot and sunny, you knew it wasn't always the case. More greens. gold and brown; less gray and red. Is it obvious I love love love landscape changes? I'm that person on the plane, forehead against the window. It's like I'm flying for the first time, every time.


Didn't take many more photos on this drive. It was a lot of the above, really. Then we dipped south to Klamath Falls--or really, outside Klamath Falls, fueled up, some some strip mall "civilization" (I ooze irony) and then it was over and up to Ashland. Hot hot hot!
I'll post this and do Day 3 Ashland in another post.

Day 2: Lakeview

So we chilled for a little while. Actually, Justin took a nap and I went outside (I'm sorry but I was not going to stay on the premises more than I had to) to get caught up on my magazines. yes, it was hot. But I'd rather be outside in the hot than inside with the old.

A little time later we decided to tool around and see what Lakeview has to offer. Answer: Absolutely fucking nothing.

An antique store near the border. Which was closed.

See, the border to California is pretty close by.

What's vageuly schizo is that you are standing next to the "Welcome to California" sign, but the sign next to it is pointing the way to Goose Lake, an Oregon State Park:


Goose Lake? More like marshy bog-type thing, where lots of cows and geese hang out and talk to each other:


As well as cranky husbands:



As for dinner options, we went to the Safeway in Lakeview (you don't want a picture) to get a couple other things, as the motel had a kitchenette.
And that's the end of the Lakeview story.
Next: Enroute to Astoria


Sunday, August 2, 2009

Day 2: Fields - Lakeview

This is Fields:

Actually, that's Justin.
And that's Fields Station.

And Fields Station is, essentially, Fields.

It's got to be the only food, fuel, restroom (actually a port-o-pot) for 90 or so miles? You can fuel up your car--and your plane. Apparently planes land there. For fuel. And probably for milkshakes. That would be good. If you had the plane and lived at the base of the Steens, you wouldn't even need to get in the plane for a frozen confection. You could give people rides. I digress and stuff.

Because the milkshakes are that good. After all, they've sold in the thousands (I was bummed that they didn't move the # on the sign when we were there. shouldn't they once you order one? do they do it at the end of the day? I should have asked, but the proprietress kind of scared me, in a not bad way, but just like I shouldn't ask about it.) Anyway, do signs like this not slay you? They slay me. Positively slayed, I tell you!



You walk in and the little store and restaurant are cooled by a huge swamp cooler. Apparently they are very efficient in this kind of heat. I only know from swamp coolers from a friend of mine who is an ex-Marine who used to live out near Joshua Tree in CA. Hers, she said, smelled like cat pee. Thankfully, this one didn't. That's all I know about swamp coolers. I don't know how they work or even why they are called swamp coolers. That they are good in the desert and can smell like cat pee.

Moving on, we ordered lunch. Justin got a burger and I got eggs and hashbrowns. We split a caramel milkshake, which I was glad for because the portions are for if you have a tank as big as a Cessna's. I'm not complaining though.

See below? That yellow stack that looks like it's under some sort of hydroponic light? That was my island of hashbrowns. There must have been 2 lbs. of them there. All for me. And they were so well-done: all crispy and bonded together and cheesy and eggs...oh, so good.



But yeah we could have probably split it.
More of the joint. I am in love with places like this. Why? I just am.



And very full and happy, we left and headed even further south.




To continue to get to Lakeview, Oregon, our stopping point for the night, we had to cross into Nevada.
The state line between Oregon and Nevada (at least on route 292) is a cow grate.

I'm not kidding.



I am not armless. I think I'm just extremely uncomfortable. Like: "aaah! we're in Nevada! my parents live here! they might sense I am in the state! let's get in and out as quick as possible!"

But that's southern Nevada. Vegas. Doesn't count.
So let's discuss Northern Nevada. An even stranger landscape, more otherworldly. Nothingness. Desolate. I love it. It fits.


Maybe 60 miles or so and we were back in Oregon. And Justin is doing the hands-behind-back-I'm-really-uncomfortable pose. I think he was a bit put out at having to stop for all the state line signs. But I love that shit. Sorry. And I was driving this portion. (We'll get to that in a moment.)
On the other hand, I'm practically molesting the sign, I'm so happy to be back in Oregon!



So we continued on. You know how I say Justin did 90% of the driving, even though we took my car? Yeah. He did. he wanted to drive the first day. Fine. Then I did a bit of the second day, down around Crane, and then stopped to eat something. Then he did. Then I took over. And so on.

But here's the deal: he's driven a hell of a lot more than I have. And so when we passed a sign that said 8% downgrade (ha ha , that sounds like dating, now that I type that) and with a precipice and no rail on the other side, I had a panic attack. No way was I doing that! Girlie girl! I need a man to step in! Fuck. I need more driving confidence.

It's like this: When I talk to people I can hear what they're not saying. And when I drive, I can see what shouldn't happen. So it's why I don't as much as I should. Hi, therapy!

Anyway, right around the hang gliding jumping-off point is where I gave up captaining Nellie for a bit:
This is also why I'm glad I did.

Livestock! In the road! I would have pulled around a bend and hit them like I did a deer in 1992! Cows! Momma and Baby! They hung out for a little bit and trotted away. Cows! Cuteness! Moo.





Finally, after what had been a long day of driving, we pulled into Lakeview, another of the one-street towns. I'm pretty sure we were the only people in this hotel. This was one of the creepiest stays I'd ever experienced. It wasn't unclean, but it was just cree-to-the-pee!


First off, you walk in and the place smells like old ladies. Not like a nursing home, but...old ladies. It had that high, weird perfumey potporri smell and ambiance of a too-old regular candy hiding in a dish full of dusty glass confections. And this was only in the entryway! The even weirder thing was that I saw no evidence of an air freshener or anything of the sort. It was like a ghost scent. Justin smelled it too.

They put us in the handicapped room.


They had printed on paper signs on everything. "Make sure you close the door!" to an outside door. "Keep voices down in the hallway!" and "Guests only!" in the exercise room, the description of which I will not creep you out with.


It was seriously like going to the Scary Aunt's house where you can't do anything, eat anything, bounce on the bed, sit on the cushions, and the place smells of staleness, and you feel oppressive and things are floral and weird, etc. You get it. I don't get this place. I wonder if it was once an old age home or something?
You know what it was like? Some Japanese fetish love hotel that was like supposed to be scary grandma's house! Maybe some people like that. I just wanted to get the fuck out of there.


Besides, I thought old people were supposed to all, correct your grammar and stuff. I know I'll be one of those old people. Hell, I'm one of them already. To wit:


If you don't see the problem here, I'm not sure we can be friends.

Day 2: Burns - Steens - Alvord

So when we left Burns, we headed toward the Steens mountains and Alvord desert. We were basically following this route.
Notice how long it says it takes? Notice the number of miles? Seems kind of off, huh?

We'll get to that.

A little bit out of Burns, take route 78 and it looks like this (I say route 78 because there's a route 78 in New Jersey that I used to take to get to Justin's house and it looks nothing like this):


I think that's Crane, Oregon.

We didn't see any cranes.

Thn we passed New Princeton. You tell me if this resembles what I will call Old Princeton, which is in New Jersey and where many horrible things from my childhood happened to make me the stable individual we know today.


I'll take New Princeton, thankyouverymuch.



Yeah. Again: New Princeton kicks Old Princeton's ass.

There were many times on this trip where one of us would say to the other something to the tune of, "Wow. Landscape." In fact, the conversations would usually go something like this:

"This is Oregon?"

"This is the U.S.?"

"This is earth?"

It was like that. You could have totally set a science fiction movie in some of this landscape (oh, please don't. leave it alone. it's amazing.) It was this weird, alterna-planetary look. Just the way the land shifted, undulated, the vastness...I am not doing it justice, but a lot of the time Justin and I didn't talk. Not like we were angry, but because we were...watching.

When the landcape is the entertainment, you know it's a good place.

Also of note: The roads.

We were surprised (and pleased) by the quality of the roads. Smooth pavement, no potholes, well-maintained. Wow, we said to each other, this is where our tax funds go instead of repairing the SE Division potholes. (Of note: I think they are doing that now, though not because of my blog.)


And then we got to the Steens.

And the gravel.

The 50 miles of gravel.

In case you were wondering why the drive is said to take 5-7 hours, here is your reason.

Even Nellie was like, dude, sorry, but I got nothin':


This is the Nav screen. Usually it shows something.

But we weren't lost, we were just slowed down. It was all very zen. And very, very dusty. Poor Nellie. She was so dirty. Poor Nellie.

This is Mann Lake, with the Steens in the background. It was kind of a mud lake. Mud Man lake? Lake Mann mud? Lake Made Mudd?:


Occasionally we'd pass an irrigated landscape/ranch-type place. Would you consider living out here? I might if I had a plane and could fly it. Like, when I wanted fro yo.


And then...on the left, we approached the Alvord desert. It was frigging bright! Much more so than it showed in this photo.



This shows you what we were driving on. For 50 miles:






I don't know how we missed the turnoff for the hot springs, but I'm not so sure that we would have gone anyway -- 140 degrees on your bum plus 98 degrees on your head? Hmm, I don't know. I'm becoming increasingly heat-intolerant. Oh, hi aging!


Here we are taking a breather to check it all out, plus get some snacks out of the trunk to hold us over until Fields.






And then it was onto Fields, for lunch.